Photos: Mari Arnover
love
you literally melt into me
your words
flow through me
into the most far-off parts
of my body
you fill me
I am
floating
losing touch with reality
and yet
I am
a real physical being
with a firestone
inside of me
heating
and pulsating
love
love
you fill me
my heat
becomes one
with you
inside of me
each day
risking anew
to find
and to lose you
each day
risking anew
to fall into
and get lost in you
each day
risking anew
not to find the way out of
my inner darkness
each day
risking anew
since there is no
insurance that
covers the risks
of loving
loving is
always
a struggle
with demons of fear
resentment and rejection
living
must be an act
of kindness and reaching out
each day
anew
without insurance
to stay quiet
and to listen to myself
to observe
my fears and insecurities
that emerge from
of my inner darkness
can I be
considerate enough
do I really know
how to be at peace and be content
to live with simplicity
amongst
the
extraordinary
to love without demands
to respect and cherish
and how to be
demanding and caring
towards myself
at the same time
to stay quiet
and to listen to myself
monitor my breathing
becoming calmer
to observe the voices
that want to shake me off the track
to let them
calm down
it is natural to be scared
but there is no insurance
against life itself
living is a risk
and loving is
unpredictably beautiful